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Love and Marriage

Most little girls ( when I was growing up anyway) dreamed of the day they would get engaged and married and wear the white dress of their choice and live happily ever after....

Why is it so HARD to get married for me......

I've caught THREE bouquets...two since being with my boyfriend.....

I was a bridesmaid in two weddings last year.... both were the best friends I've known for over 10 years.

My one best friend married her sweetheart from right out of high school after 7 years of dating....
Thats understandable seeing as she was barely 18 when they met...
My other best friend married a guy that she was with for less than a year, but they are so in love it raises the questions....

What am I doing wrong? Why am I not married or at least having serious conversations about getting married with my boyfriend?

I'm trying to be patient but my body only has but so much time before I can't have any more children. I'm 27 years old and I'm ready to be on my own and start taking care of a family of my own.

I know he loves me, but when should I stop waiting...

Day 1- Welcome to my world!

Hi! Welcome to the world of Ladybug. I choose this name because this was what I named my old beetle. I know, its kinda lame :-S
I loved that car literally to death.... it left me on the side of the road as it burst into flames. It was not only my first car but it was my favorite kind of car. I've always loved beetles. Blame Herbie. I watched that alot as a child.
Let me tell you about myself.
I was a typical 80's child. I watched all the goodies.... carebears, gi joe, transformers, my little ponies...
All the good stuffs. Nothin is like it used to be.
I'm my own person.
I have a very unique personality and I have my own way of doing things. I'm very crafty.
I enjoy crocheting, sewing, making things with my hands....I love to draw and paint. I'm in a rut right now with that but I continue to crochet. Its my ultimate de-stressing time.
I'm trying my hand at wire wrapped jewelry and so far I'm liking it.
My personal life is well rounded... I think LOL
I have two best friends that I have known for over ten years. I was in both of their weddings and I love them to death. They are nothing but loyal and loving friends to me and we just always have great times together.
I have a man that I love unconditionally... although he tests my love quite often but then reminds me why I do just as often. I have a BEAUTIFUL 5 year old daughter. Everyone thinks their child is beautiful. But my daughter is absolutely adorable. She has my big almond shaped eyes and her father's forever long eyelashes..
She has a beautiful smile and can make you laugh from her quirky little personality.
I'm hoping that we will be able to get our own place soon and work our way to the more permanent step.
I'm a fan, not a follower...
I have a quirky taste in movies. My absolute favorite is The Fifth Element. I think because its just so out there. I've watched the movie about a billion times.
I have recently fallen in love with Twilight. I'm not like an obsessive fan. I heard all about the crazy stuff and was a little turned off by it. I don't like to follow the crowd. So I waited and watched the movie a month or so after it came out. And I was so intrigued by what was obviously alot of missing information so I grabbed the books from my bff. I think I literally fell in love with Edward. As weird as it sounds, Stephenie Meyer really created and unattainable man and her book drew you in to much that you really felt like you were in the shoes of Bella.
I feel really bad for the cast. They are hounded by crazy fans all the time. I love the movie and the books, but I have a respect for myself and others and I really couldn't live with myself to act like that.
I wish I had the courage to talk to a celebrity if I saw one. I'm so incredibly shy I would probably look, notice, and then just wave. I wouldn't want to draw attention and have them running for their lives. If I ever met a celebrity, I would love to sit down and talk to them. Person to person. I love meeting new people but people always have the wrong impression of me.
I'm not a snob!
There is no reason to be a snob. I'm just shy. I keep to myself. I had a rough time growing up. I was bullied for years before I finally just broke and fought back. But I'm not nasty, or violent... all the time LOL.
But I will stand up for myself and what I believe in.
So if you have the chance to meet me you can believe that my smile is genuine and that I really am glad to meet you. I'm just me....